Monday, April 7, 2008
liberty,service(matthews20:25-26),spirit love,love,faith(2nd tim1:7),concern,control,devotion,giving(2nd cor9:6),examples,breakthrough.
today went to school was SUPER tired.take e class key relised class diary not inside e tray nvm la.went back to class straight open e door slept for awhile than ard 7.20 ask them to go down than someone came and say"eh kathleen open the door"!i look at my watch it was already 7.25 so i told e person i ca't or esle mr singh will scold again.blame me again!this person shouted back "CB ******"!damn angry forget about it!than moviing monday.was abit bored but wad to do?yes it is my fault i never say i am wrong but it is wrong for someone who is not involved to anyhow say things than when people ask pretend dunno.dun wan go sch also cannot.i was'nt feeling very good for the past 2 weeks!i maybe laughing joking talking nonsense but that does not means i am happy.having kinds of nightmares about school and something esle wake up suddenly cannot get back to sleep.than next morning still have to go to sch have lessons!yes is my marks i want my marks i never say i dun wan my marks..if u dun like me than come scold me straight la.if u hate me dun bother talk to me la.if u feel i am troublesome say la.if u dun trust me so be it.if u think tt i am useless or worthless so be it!i'm sure tt's wad u all think!if u think that i will give u trouble dun be friends with me.if u think tt becos of wad happen today think tt i am not trustable than dun trust me again.i know tt wadever i say or no matter how i say nobody will listen.not angry with u cos i noe i'm in e wrong!so wadever u wan do do i dun even care so much!i can't runaway from u wad.have to face u one day.oh god why is e devil so evil!?why is e devil doing this to me?causing alot of conflict for me?why?..and pls dun ever say this thing like"u still have e face to say u are a......from........" pls do not!i'm not pointing fingers at whoever.my life has been screwed up!
I am living in the world of darkness but i know that God will be the light. at 8:24 AM